this is my home…

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I will sound like a broken record when I say this, but a lot has transpired over the past few months. Well, let’s just go ahead and say over the past year. There has been an astounding amount of growth, an absurd about of heartache, and an abhorrent amount of learning. I feel like I’ve been a bit ‘all over the map’ as they say. But looking back on the last year(s) of my life, how could I not have been all over the map. My life has been all. over. the map. In more ways than I can really articulate here, my very essence has been put through the ringer of life and I really had no choice but to continue to grasp at whatever appeared to be the most authentic path for me at any given time. And that’s how I navigated through it all. One day at a time…no judgements…no misgivings…just going with what felt right at each moment.

But there have, of course, been constants. My role as a mother and a wife keep me grounded to what is essential in my world. My husband and my kids are this great focal point for bringing me back to what really matters in this life. But there has also been art…my one true art…my home.

Since falling in love with photography six years ago, it has been the most natural extension of my artistic self. Having never been successful at drawing or painting, photography finally allowed me a medium in which I could relate to others the very internal ways in which I see and feel about the world. It’s so relieving at this point in my artistic career to have someone intuit from a photograph I’ve taken (or a series of photographs) what I feel but would never be able to articulate with anything other than imagery. I can chose my words carefully, being selective about what I reveal. But my photographs reveal the contents of my heart and soul…all naked and unedited. As Henri Cartier-Bresson has said, photography is “a way of shouting the way you feel.”

It’s no surprise that the upheaval and hardship that this last year has held has brought me closer to this medium which allows me to make sense of the chaos and beauty of the mess. Within photography, I need to slow down, to observe closely, to select what to focus on and decide how to frame it. It’s been the same in life as of late. One is practice for the other. When I heard Ingrid Michaelson’s new song called Home, I couldn’t help but think about how my place behind my camera has been this sort of home for me…

“Even in the harshest of winter I feel so warm
Even when the marks climb up the wall I still feel small
This is my home
This is my home
Where I go when I’ve got nowhere else to go
This is my home
This is my home
Where I go when I don’t know where else to go
I know everything about this place
It wears your face
Even when my body blows away my soul will stay.”

And because photography has been such a “home” for me, I have created a special “home” for my photography. Not that I haven’t shared here (or won’t continue to share), but I needed a special place to feel free and encouraged to share these Stories that I’m collecting. Because the telling of these stories, the expression of my art is a side of the coin that I have been neglecting. My photos have a lot to say…I’m (finally) happy to give them a place to speak.

 

skein + paint {v.14}…

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left: Maegan / right: Dana

I am full on swooning over the colors in Dana’s painting this week! That one little dark teal block in there…oh my!…it’s like the icing on the cake. (and don’t you all think it sort of matches my Madeline Bea logo??…clearly I’m partial!) She is so, so very good at coming up with responses to my images.

Skein + Paint is a collaboration between two friends who share a love of color, texture, and art. Their idea was simple: that the crossing and mixing of various art forms would inspire something more. By using each other’s work as inspiration, they would stretch within their own work, gain insight into how others view that work, and inspire themselves and others toward future work. Creating in their respective mediums, each week one of them will have provided an image as a prompt and the other will have interpreted that prompt. Dana will be bringing images to life by hand with pencils, paints, pens, etc. Maegan will be working with yarn coupled with photography. The image that was the prompt will be featured on the left and the image that was the interpreted response will be on the right.

eight years of her…

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We celebrated 8 years of her this past week. This girl is one amazing gift to celebrate, too! Her special day was true to her soft and soulful nature, and filled with fun and love. I am so grateful for her presence in my life. It’s amazing the gifts we are given in life.
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skein + paint {v.13}…

 

left: Dana / right: Maegan

Some weeks, I see Dana’s image and I start to envision my “response” right away. The colors or the pattern or the composition will put me in mind of something I’m working on, have tucked away, or a certain yarn I would pair with her image. Some weeks, like this one, I truly have no idea what I’m going to photograph until the last moment when it all comes together. This week’s pairing was somewhat of a happy accident. I took this photograph of the shawl I’m currently working on. I was not photographing it for S+P. But as I was wondering and wondering what to photograph to pair with Dana’s pretty flowers, it occurred to me how perfect this image would, in fact, be. I love it when things work out that beautifully! Happy Monday, friends!

Skein + Paint is a collaboration between two friends who share a love of color, texture, and art. Their idea was simple: that the crossing and mixing of various art forms would inspire something more. By using each other’s work as inspiration, they would stretch within their own work, gain insight into how others view that work, and inspire themselves and others toward future work. Creating in their respective mediums, each week one of them will have provided an image as a prompt and the other will have interpreted that prompt. Dana will be bringing images to life by hand with pencils, paints, pens, etc. Maegan will be working with yarn coupled with photography. The image that was the prompt will be featured on the left and the image that was the interpreted response will be on the right.

 

live every breath…

Did you know that each month over at The Creative Mama we offer a new inspirational image to print and share? This month, the focus is on being very intentional with our moments and really living the breadth and width of our lives. You can read the full post, download, and print the image over at TCM…there’s even some journaling prompts to get you digging deeper into this month’s message. I love putting these together each month! And it helps so much having a mantra in mind each month as I continually strive to keep my focus on what truly matters. Enjoy!

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